o7.22.2o12
“Well, hello there. How have you been? How’s life treatin’ you? How is everything? I miss you. When are we going to hangout? Why don’t I see you around school anymore? What’s happening to you?”
The most common questions I’ve been getting lately. *
Hmm. I don’t know what’s up with my life anymore— or with me. I’m tired of everything. I’m sorry if I’ve been ignoring everyone or being such an ass to anyone, i really am sorry about how I’m acting or how I’ve acted towards anyone. I know I’ve been ignoring almost everyone that was a big part of my life last year. just give me some time, I promise you everything will be just the same before I leave, and I also know I’m graduating in four months and all, but I still haven’t made up my mind about what I wanna do after. I wanna go to college, that’s for sure. The only problem about it is that I don’t know where I should go. I’m confused with my life right now. I wanna do two things at once, and I know it is impossible to do, but I want to. I have a lot of good opportunities that’s being offered in both Engineering & Business— oh, and let’s not forget about Music. I wanna do something that has to do with all of it, so I was thinking of Music Producing, but then again, my parents wouldn’t allow that. (Ugh, why do you want to be everything, Victoria?!) I am not sure what I wanna be anymore. I should probably just take a year off. Off from school, and probably other things. My life is so complicated. I am so complicated. Eh, everything is so complicate. I wanna be a three-month old baby again. So stress-free, care-free, problem-free.. Free from everything.
Again, I am sorry for the people who feels they’re being ignored by me or something. Just give me some time to get my life back up together and running.
i just realized how much i have grown and change this past year. if the 12/21/12 hoax is true, i just wanna say i’m sorry for everything stupid, dumb, and hurtful i have done to you— to anyone of you. i’m sorry to all my old friends that i just decided to stop associating with; i love you guys though, i know you know who you guys are. i know i could’ve been a better person, but i decided not to, and that was one of the biggest mistake i’ve done this year. i’m sorry guys.
i don’t usually get mad, but when i do.. i’d rather stay quiet and mind my own business.
i might not talk to you, but that doesn’t mean that i don’t care about you anymore. i just think giving each other some space will be better for both of us.
I miss the late night talks. I miss the late night strolls/cruise along. I miss seeing you. I miss hugging you. I miss sleeping and waking up next to you. I miss going to places with you. I miss everything that we did. I miss you.. in general.
I wish I’m right where you are right now.
I miss summer.
All of my feelings for you… just came back. I thought I was over you. I thought I got over you a long time ago. I thought I moved on already. I guess we all do have that one person that no matter what we do, no matter how much we try, we just can’t get over him/her. The sad part about this is the fact that you don’t even wanna talk to me. How am I suppose to talk to you without you making it awkward, or wait, we actually talked but someone had to ruin everything— bitch.
